I posted this on my facebook page:
so I've got a lot on my mind right now and writing is a stress reliever to me:)
so get ready here I go!
I love my children oh so much, and after praying for these miracles for 2 years, and going through infertility you sometimes feel as if you aren't allowed to have these feelings, after all this is what I prayed for and wanted so badly.
TRUE...i did! And anyone that knows me knows I love my children fiercely..but I do get weary in well doing!
It's a tough season of life raising 2 toddlers! And my Emma is the most strong willed little girl I've ever seen..she tests the fire out of me , and sometimes i just want to give up and say ok you win!! But I tell her I love her too much to let her get away with some of the stuff she tries:) she must be thinking well mama don't love me so much for pete's sake!:)
I adore this girl..and I think about the stories of moms who have raised their strong willed little tyke and now they are AMAZING adults or teens and that gives me hope! It encourages me to keep disciplining, keep loving her!
Sometimes I have to walk away from her..because I get angry ...how is it that such tiny creatures can make our blood boil:) I'm praying daily that I will discipline IN LOVE! I'm also going to start praying that God will use em's strong willedness for His good..He made Emma, and the plans for her are amazing! I have to keep that in mind!
Also another thing I struggle with is..How she acts is not a reflection on bryan and I as parents but how we RESPOND AND REACT to her behaviour does reflect on us. Please understand when our kids misbehave we do deal with IT, and boy have we heard some comments, to which we say If you dont' have a strong willed child you DON"T Know what its like..instead of criticize just pray for us!:):)
One thing I love about my Emma is her sense of humor! That girl can make me smile like no other!
I am so thankful that God has given us Emma and Brennan! I just KNOW that i can't do this alone..I need His help to get through the day and to be the kind of mom He wants me to be!
The end!
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This post just proves how wonderful a mother you are, Andrea! Yes, being a parent IS butt-kickin' hard. Yes, we have a Lord who gives us the grace, wisdom and love we need for this job. I can't imagine doing this without Him. And, yes, I just used the term "butt-kickin'" and our Lord in the same post.
I just had to share - it is too much of a coincidence not to be a "God Thing'!
This morning dd bit a kid HARD at preschool (it has to be reported to head office) and I was sooooo embarrassed. As I was walking home i was thinking about something i once heard about kids behavior and how it reflects on us. And Low and Behold, I get home and see this new post in my blogger inbox and remember exactly where I had heard it(from when you posted this on PAI)and what it was about QUOTE "How she acts is not a reflection on bryan and I as parents but how we RESPOND AND REACT to her behaviour does reflect on us."
So the point of this was, I just wanted to share how what you are going through is also being used by God as an encouragment to others.
Andrea,
As the mother of a VERY strong willed child (actually 2), who is now 11, it is extremely hard sometimes. Sometimes I feel exactly the way you feel. In some ways it gets easier as they age and in some ways it doesn't. I just want to encourage you to just keep plugging away. I know that sounds very simple, but it is just what you do. I know you are a great mom and don't every deny yourself the feelings of a "normal" mother just because you had to work harder to get your kids.
Julie
"A", I found you my friend!! Yippee ;)
As for strong willed...jeepers. I have 4 VERY strong willed ones. Your comment about "how" we react being a reflection on our parenting really go me. Good one girl. I am going to file that deep in my heart for the next blow-up in our world (probably tomorrow). I needed that...must be a God thing. Thanks!
-"K"
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