being a parent is tough!

I posted this on my facebook page:

so I've got a lot on my mind right now and writing is a stress reliever to me:)
so get ready here I go!
I love my children oh so much, and after praying for these miracles for 2 years, and going through infertility you sometimes feel as if you aren't allowed to have these feelings, after all this is what I prayed for and wanted so badly.
TRUE...i did! And anyone that knows me knows I love my children fiercely..but I do get weary in well doing!

It's a tough season of life raising 2 toddlers! And my Emma is the most strong willed little girl I've ever seen..she tests the fire out of me , and sometimes i just want to give up and say ok you win!! But I tell her I love her too much to let her get away with some of the stuff she tries:) she must be thinking well mama don't love me so much for pete's sake!:)
I adore this girl..and I think about the stories of moms who have raised their strong willed little tyke and now they are AMAZING adults or teens and that gives me hope! It encourages me to keep disciplining, keep loving her!
Sometimes I have to walk away from her..because I get angry ...how is it that such tiny creatures can make our blood boil:) I'm praying daily that I will discipline IN LOVE! I'm also going to start praying that God will use em's strong willedness for His good..He made Emma, and the plans for her are amazing! I have to keep that in mind!

Also another thing I struggle with is..How she acts is not a reflection on bryan and I as parents but how we RESPOND AND REACT to her behaviour does reflect on us. Please understand when our kids misbehave we do deal with IT, and boy have we heard some comments, to which we say If you dont' have a strong willed child you DON"T Know what its like..instead of criticize just pray for us!:):)

One thing I love about my Emma is her sense of humor! That girl can make me smile like no other!
I am so thankful that God has given us Emma and Brennan! I just KNOW that i can't do this alone..I need His help to get through the day and to be the kind of mom He wants me to be!

The end!